Well..

It seems i've really blown it with my guy, he won't even speak to me. It's really hard cus he has had so lil time for me and made me feel like he didn't care...I'm realizing more and more now that i'm in love with him and him not talking to me is killing me. I think the reason is he wants to talk to me about all of it when we have time to talk together. I could be wrong. Maybe he really has decided that he's tired of me always feeling this way and thinks i'll be better off..but i won't be. He means the world to me and i have known that for sometime.

What do i do now? Yea, Yea..i know..if it was meant to be he'll come around etc..yes i hear ya...everyone says that..bah i'm such a stupid, stupid girl.