Hmm part II

It seems like i never post anything in here when i'm in a good mood or have something good to talk about but i guess that's ok...

I sat down the other day w/ my honey and told him exactly how i was feeling about things and he's really making an honest attempt to make me happy and that's making me happier than i can say..

However the reason i am sitting here right now is because i gotta go get ready to go to a meeting i don't really want to go to and i'm upset because april just informed me that chris broke up w/ her..more about all this later cus i'm going to be late for my meeting.

hmm..

I've been sitting here staring at this blank page for probably 10 minutes now. I have so much to say yet i can't seem to manage to find a way to put it in writing. What's worse is i can't seem to make up my mind about what i want to do about any of it either.

I have mentioned in almost every blog that i'm dating someone. Dating, is that what it is when you spend hardly any time w/ them? Hmm.. He says everything i want to hear, he is so sweet, kind, caring, loving, compassionate and most of all, he listens to me. But, our physical time together, no i don't mean in a sexual way, i mean physically in every sense of the word, is few and far between. I've spent around 7 years or better being alone and i don't really care to do it anymore. What i want is for him to get this and do something about it, but seems he isn't going to...that's what bothers me the most..why doesn't he do something about it? He tells me all the time he's trying,, and i want to believe that..but i'm not hard to please, just an hour or so a week is about all i need to keep me content. Yet, i don't get that from him. Text is great, phone is great, but it's not enough for me, call me crazy. But i need physical attention also. Am i asking for too much? Cus i sure feel like i am.

As for work..some stuff happened at the bar last night,...someone told the bartender that Erin was underage and frankly i'm happy about it, but she's mad at me for it..so whatever. I wrote a long blog about this topic on myspace so i'm not going to bother to add one here also. I really don't feel the need to discuss it further.

I did finally get a raise at work and i was also told after summer i can go to days...but i'm not sure that's what i want. And if i go to waiting tables come summer's end i'm not going to make any money. But April is looking forward to being a manager and i guess for that reason i should end my reign as waffle house manager.......hmm..yea